Essence of Time:
When, will I wake up, only time will tell, only time will tell
And, then we shall see, what I have lost
When, will I wake up, only time will tell, only time will tell
then we shall see, what I have lost
Slowly the hands, push forward
further, into, the unknown
everything remains, so, motionless
it has become set, set in stone
what have I done, what have I become, to this day, I don't know
I have witnessed as, my dreams have turned to dust
watching as they wisp away, fade away, and just decay
but what lays before me, will not slow me
for I hold the key, to my own future
And with my final breath
I'll find the strength to triumph, over death
so stand up tall and look into, my eyes
And stare right through, peer deep, and stare right through
so come together and lay claim to our, prize
so come together and lay claim to our, prize
I will pursue, i will pursue new beginnings
I will pursue, I will pursue new beginnings
I won't stop until I've had enough
I won't stop until I've reached the top
I won't stop, until I've had enough
Ascend to Reality:
Can you hear, the drop of the gavel
as it meets the surface of the table
A judgement, has been made,
all you sins must be undeniably paid paid in full
All rise, court is adjourned, your last chance
is upon you, to make things right (to make things right)
or will you continue to be, the harbinger of your own, suffering
which path shall it be, which path shall it be
You've traveled, in, solitude
Reflecting back upon, past mistakes
only churning up, emotion, and filling up with hate
with hate, so cast aside, all of your pride, it's time to start a new slate
4-23-10:
So rarely, do I get to visit anymore, anymore.
This area has become, vacant, and removed
The grass is always greenest of the green,
And soft, to the touch.
The grass is always greenest of the green,
And soft, to the touch.
Such a surreal, landscape littered with so many, memories
confined, in everlasting silence.
Knelt down before, this stone monument,
I gaze upon my past, I gaze upon, my past.
So many phrases race through my head,
while so many things, are left unsaid.
You were always much more than a memory,
you remain, real to me
can't you see, that this pain it wont recede.
can't you see, that this pain it wont recede
I came here today, to just say one last thing,
that I wish you weren't, taken away
Capsized:
This ship is sinking fast, I feel my feet seeping further, into the water
Like a wave, your lies crash upon this deck
Slowly the water rises, filling up to my neck!
Like a wave, your lies crash upon this deck
Slowly the water rises, filling up to my neck!
What have I done, to deserve this!
I've lost all hope, and all, purpose!
What have I done, to deserve this!
I've lost all hope, and all, purpose!
Was he worth the pleasure, you received from that night!?
Was he worth the pleasure, you received from that night, from that night from that night!
Did anything I ever do, bring you some happiness?
Or was I just a waste of time, not worth a single dime?
I hope you know this road ran both ways, I put all I had in to just, watch it decay, just to watch it decay!
Now I know this road, it was only paved with lies and deceit, and deceit, never to be completed.
You've turned your back and there’s no coming back
No coming back!
This ship is collapsed and consumed by your wave
Slowly I begin to feel, as my lungs, asphyxiate, asphyxiate!
I can't see the shore, I can't see the shore!
I can't see the shore, I can’t see the shore, no not anymore!
Conquest of Aspirations:
Digging my nails, into the back of this, unforgiving world
Laced with the cruelest intentions, makes it so hard, to, mention
I'm on a downward spiral, through the ages, through the ages
Over and over, fading in and out, of all these pages, these pages
Stripped away, forgetting everything, I've ever known
Just grant me the right to ratify, my own life
As I push, and pull, and try to settle, settle the score
My conscious cannot, take this anymore, no not anymore
Cleanse my soul, it's so unbearable
Time and time again, I encounter this pain
But enlightened I remain x2
Formalities:
I don't know, how else to say this
should I, just repeat myself, for you
Should I, carve it into my hands
should I bury myself in shame
All this, unrelenting pain
It cannot, It will not, Sustain anymore
Only, I'm the one to blame, for I never exclaimed the love
I held for you, I held for you
It's fallen through, like grains of sand
right through these hands, right through these hands
Watching, so closely, upon your high, horse
feeling no remorse for what you've done
I hope you know this could only end one way
with the lies you created,
that lasted for, that lasted for, days
So listen up this is the final cut
I kept it honest, I followed through on what I promised
Only you are, the one to be held, accountable, accountable
So, silence yourself, and just go straight to hell
So, silence yourself, and just go straight to hell
